Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Struggling with jealousy and wants.

Lately I've been struggling with this thing called: Jealousy.
Yes Jealousy.
I have a huge issue with it and I need to get over it and move on.

Two things about me:
1) I have a huge urge and desire to travel. I just have so many places I want to go, its my dream! But. Money is an issue. I know I'm only 19 but it would be nice to go places. However, I do know that someday I'll see these places if I work hard and stay focused. God wouldn't put those desires there for no reason.
2) I really want to own nice things. Especially a nice car. Don't ask me why I just do.

So as you can see, both of these things cost money, which, I have money just not enough to do these things. I try so very hard to stay content and know that I'm super blessed and lucky with what I do have. But the desire is still there. My issue is, I know a lot of people and some of them have nice cars (most of which their parents have bought for them, so it doesn't bug me too bad. I want to work for what I want.) and 90% of the people I know have been to many places around the world.
I know that shouldn't make me jealous but it does!
I just want to see things, and experience things.
I. Dont. Want. To. Waste. My. Life.

The world is meant to be seen!!!!!!!!!
Life is meant to be lived!

I just need to realize that I'm here for a reason, and if I'm meant to see the world I will. But I guess for now, I just have to be happy and try my best to kill the jealousy.
Okay, well I'm out.
Night,
Taylor

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